For the 3rd year in a row I have failed to complete the Surf City 1/2 marathon. This year, 28 days after having a c-section, I walked the 5K.
It was probably closer to 5 miles, since I started walking from where I parked and past the 1/2 marathon start before getting to Main St in Huntington Beach. I was also the latest start, I'm sure, as I showed up about 40 minutes after the "gun" went off.
I wasn't sure I was going to do the race. It was supposed to be raining and I didn't want to take the bean out in that kind of weather. I didn't want to leave him at home, either. When I woke up, I saw a friend's picture that she posted on Facebook. The weather was beautiful at my house and beautiful in Huntington Beach, so I woke up my mother and we got ourselves and the bean ready to go, then went.
It was a bittersweet event. I was jonesing to run and jealous of the 1/2 marathoners who were getting to complete my favorite distance ever. When I had seen this race in my head I was carrying the bean or he would be waiting for me at the finish line with the person I love. and who loves me. I will admit there were tears. There were more mutterings and thoughts about how this wasn't how it was supposed to be. This was not the life I planned. My life was not supposed to be this way.
Even though this is not my choice, it is my life. In the end, Nathan was waiting there with the person I love and who loves me, my Mom. It may not have been the scene I had in my head, but it was still a great memory.
I really have to learn to lean on the support I have, use them when they offer.
5 comments:
Yas - next time use your phone and tweet/text us! We would have loved to have you join us for our horror stories. Not to mention we needed someone to stand in line to the beer garden (just kidding!).
Are you doing the OC Marathon/Half? I'm not running, butI am going to show up at the start and possibly do moral support from my bike! The bean should be old eugh then to put in a stroller. Go chick some dudes!
Aw, Yas. I really wish I lived closer. I've been where you are, with 2 babies. Keep plugging along, it will get better. :)
Yay! for you for getting out there and having the support and love from your family. Just wait until Nathan gets old enough to cheer for you! (No hurry, though. Enjoy baby-time while you can :)
Oh Yas! I'm sorry it was emotional, but glad you had the Bean and your mom to cheer you on!
Oh yes...I agree with Glenn. Get on twitter. I want to meet the bean!
28 days after a C-section, you did a 5K? you are amazing!
Yas you are strong and they way you have picked up running like you never left it, well you really only did the last few weeks. You hang on girl, I hope for nothing but a bright trails ahead.
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